Well...Met with Dr. Payne today. Prognosis in my opinion is not good. Wendy and Kristen came with me to meet with the nursing staff (hey Kristen- you made the blog...hooray!). It sounds like Wendy has been telling people otherwise, but I think it's just to keep them optimistic.

I hate to be negative but in looking at the statistics for metastasized cancer, it appears that at state IV, you are about a 10% chance to survive 5 years. That is quite a scary statistic. I would be lying if I said I wasn't afraid. My life is so good to me. I have two boys that I would do anything for, a wonderful wife, a terrific job, a great business, and tremendous support from everywhere. I am lucky. I am thankful.

I am however not dying today. I think that in the days to come, that I have a real chance to communicate with Coop and Knox even after I am gone. So, for that I am grateful as well.

I often try to answer this question,(especially now being diagnosed with cancer for the 2nd time), "what would you do with your life if you knew your time was limited?" Hard to come up with much, especially when your funds are limited. What I want the most, is for Coop, and Knox, to know that no matter what, I am with them.

If you have just scored a touchdown...I am with you. If you just fumbled in the 4th quarter...I am with you. If you just made honor roll...I am with you. If you just got your first "F"...I am with you. If you just received an award from school...I am with you. If you just got detention...I am with you. If you just got in trouble with the cops (uh-oh), I am with you. If the community just recognized you...I am with you. If you just loved someone who broke your heart...I am with you. If you just found the love of your life...I am with you. If you just fell apart for no reason what-so-ever...I am with you. And if you just re-discovered yourself...I am with you.

I may not always be here physically, but trust me, I am watching you, I am with you. Open your heart, I am there. Close your eyes at night, I am there.

Each and every New Year's (Coop, Knox, & Wendy)I love you!!!

Smile...today could be your last.